Seriously Lord?

Seriously Lord? Are you kidding me? Well at this point you just have to smile and remind yourself that He is in control and we are not. His ways are not our ways of that I am sure.  


The Lord is righteous in all His ways
and faithful in all He does.
Psalm 145:17


As most of you know Juddah went in for his MRI last week but it had to be rescheduled due to his feeding schedule. This morning was the day he was scheduled for the second attempt at an MRI. Juddah was not to eat from midnight. I posted on facebook asking for prayers for him, as he is still waking every 3-4 hours in the night to eat. I was quite anxious for him and what the night would bring. So hard to hear a little one in distress, especially when you can't explain to them why they can't eat. Well the prayers of the righteous are certainly powerful and effective. Thank you everyone that prayed for Juddah yesterday and well into the wee hours of the morning.   The little guy didn't wake once during the night, and then this morning at 5:30 I scooped him off the bed, buckled him in his carseat, and headed out in the cold morning air, all without a peep. As we pulled into the parking garage, it was eerily empty. Not even a parking garage attendant. After a quick call to Jody, it was confirmed that Juddah's appointment wasn't until 6:30. So Juddah had another 45 minutes to wait. I prayed he wouldn't wake up, and just stay sleeping until it was time for the building to open. Soon after my prayer ended, Juddah started stirring in his car seat. I prayed again,  Lord, just let him stay asleep until it's time for his appointment. Well the stirring quickly ramped up and soon he was sitting in the front seat with me. I'm not sure I can give justice thru words to describe Juddah's demeanor. But as he woke, he wasn't irritated at the fact he hadn't eaten, or even grumpy that it was so early in the morning or even complaining that it was so cold out. Instead he looked up at me with those big brown eyes, and smiled immediately. He then began to make those sweet little baby sounds, it was just the sweetest moment. At that moment, it was obvious that these eyes were the eyes of a precious gift. A precious soul that was created in the image of our Lord, a precious soul created for such a time as this. 


We headed into his appointment, and even once we got into the office, and under the bright lights, and having the nurses talking to him Juddah still wasn't discontent, he was peaceful and calm and loving, and busy winning the hearts of his caregivers. 


As we went thru the pre-procedure questioning, the nurse said, "is that a stuffy nose I hear?" 


Obvious from the tone in her voice, it was clear that a stuffy nose was not a good thing to have, when you are getting ready for an MRI. After some discussion, the doctor was called, and it was decided that the MRI should be rescheduled to avoid complications with his breathing. 


Seriously Lord.... reschedule.....  OK, it's your plan, not mine in this I will rest. 


On the drive home, I got to thinking about the fruits of the spirit, and the way that Juddah had just exhibited most of them in the midst of uncomfortable circumstances for him. Still trying to figure out how faithfulness fits into this morning. But all the others were most apparent. 


But the fruit of the Spririt is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.
Galatians 5:21


So much to learn from such a tiny guy. One so small and fresh and untouched by the things the world has to offer. A little one that the Lord is using to change the world, and share the gospel. 


Here is a short video clip I took with my iphone while Juddah was waiting the nurse to call the Doctor to see if we should proceed with the MRI.... 



and a picture of him with my iphone too... what does it look like he is doing here?

2 comments:

Jill - FNA Photography said...

oh cherrie i'm so sorry but God has a lesson for all of us to learn through this experience!

hugs and love - he is so precious!

Andrea said...

I LOVE that he always looks surprised, even when he looks like he's praying. :) Beautiful boy! Praying for him!!